I got Almost Nothing of What I wanted..!

This is a long puzzle journey of my life. At this moment of my life I have learned enough how to let thing happen and I need to work in order to receive without being in self-doubt. Yes, doing nothing would not give me anything, I don’t believe in luck without working. But I have learned how to remove the limitations of my thoughts on the results. I follow do work well, have good my own values and be kind enough to myself which definitely replicates on others. Thinking of a result totally depends on the perception of our own capabilities and almost every time we limit the results.

Interesting thing is Universe doesn’t care about what we think. It brings the results as we worked or based on our true capabilities as we deserve and this is why most of the time we do not get what we want. In my story, I rarely got what I wanted and I am totally blessed that I did not get what I wanted 🙂

After completing my Master’s degree I wanted to get a job first to earn my own pocket-money and then try to get a job. So how much did I want to earn? Do you have any idea? When I was in hostel during my Master’s, I used to have pocket-money ₹2500-3000 (Indian Rupee) from my father and it wasn’t ever more than that. I managed my food and little bit of luxury as recharging my phone with top-up and take a bus to the University.

A girl who was happy with that amount of money how much she could dream of earning pocket-money? I used to get nervous to give an interview where they would give salary as ₹10 K. Immediately thought I am sure I am not supposed to apply this job as it is so much of money and they would ask for technical qualifications which I don’t have. I would earn some ₹4-5 K and study for Government jobs until I get one. But I couldn’t get the courage to go out for a job as my father said I cannot do private company job, I don’t know the outside world and how dangerous it could be for me.

Poor me! I thought it’s okay to take the little pocket-money from my father. As I returned from hostel and had to stay at home, my pocket-money was only ₹500 and I gave little tuition and earned another 500. My life was okay being in a village and I was busy with study from morning 6 am until I go to sleep at night. After all I had to get the job, I wanted to be independent anyway. Those days were the start of my hard work for being patient and sitting at the same place for 4 hours at once and read and remember and practice and repeat.

But that still didn’t help me to identify what would be the result, I was fine with any Government job. Then one day I thought I could do some technical courses as a backup in case I don’t get a job in Government sector. I could still make some time to do it out of my study hour. I was that desperate to get a job. But I had no clue what would be the course to help me. I decided to talk to my uncle who is the only person I trusted as knowledgeable. What I didn’t know that time is my willingness to talk to my uncle is going to change everything in my life, I was about to get the blue print of my future.

I got the job! where? In Bangalore. I am that girl who couldn’t even explore my own city Kolkata (West Bengal, India) and she flew 1800 km away to explore her life. That was the first big thing of my life which I never imagined of and at the same time you see I didn’t get what I wanted. There are many stories like this in my life. I cried when I didn’t get the thing I wanted but after a year or more I realized I got something bigger than what I wanted. This is not only about getting job, that includes everything in my life as I lead it right now. Still I want many things to happen in my life and sometimes limit myself too. But now I don’t chase anymore to make myself upset as I know I would get what I deserve. I just need to be ready to say Yes at any moment even if it is now.

What are the stories in your life? Did you realize what big thing you got instead of what you wanted?

 

Master-of-the-Universe

2 thoughts on “I got Almost Nothing of What I wanted..!

  1. Thank you for sharing this! I think your blog is inspiring and it just fits in what I’m going through in my development now. Sometimes there is this discrepancy between what we are used to due to our environment and loved ones and that what we seek on the inside; in terms of boundaries and the believe of what is possible for us individually. I think this is a big step of yours that you broke away from your habitual life. Keep it up, never stop exploring 🙂

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  2. Thank you for sharing this! I think your blog is inspiring and it just fits in what I’m going through in my development now. Sometimes there is this discrepancy between what we are used to due to our environment and loved ones and that what we seek on the inside; in terms of boundaries and the believe of what is possible for us individually. I think this is a big step of yours that you broke away from your habitual life. Keep it up, never stop exploring 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

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